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This is Aja. I write fanfic. At times I rant about politics and make people watch things, but mostly I just write fanfic and blither.

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So I decided to keep a running list of all the books I've read this year. But I think it's a heck of a lot easier in the long run to just keep one post and add to it rather than try to write individual reviews for things. Longer reviews are linked where they're available.

Read, 2009: )

creepy kid ahhh
Aja: ajfkasdjk;l i just got an email notif that my BLURB ORDER has been shipped
Aja: my... free bound copy of the LJ anthology
Aja: fjklasdksjkdjskl
sam: fucking dead.
sam: what will you do
sam: if you get it
sam: and you open it
sam: all excitedly
sam: pull back the wrapping
sam: and there's a book inside
sam: all burnt
sam: and a note
Aja: ahahahaha
sam: "See how u like it"
sam: "- Frank"
Aja: you always know how to put things in perspective, sam <3
excited



omg say hello to my Yamaha P-85! She is new! (well, clearance discounted, but STILL SO NEW AND SHINY AND AMAZING). She has a pedal! she is sensitive to touch! She plays dynamics! She has a crystal-clear perfect beautiful sound and 88 beautiful keys and she comes with headphones so i can play her all the time as loud as I like, and I will pet her and hold her and love her and squeeze her and I'm going to call her Maayah! That's an anagram of Yamaha! OMG YOU GUYS SHE IS SO PERFECT! ALSO THE PIANO STORE GUY THREW IN THE PATHETIQUE SHEET MUSIC FOR FREE (y)!

but what i'm trying to say is basically omg i have not had a piano of my own in ten years and it is the best thing ever. ever.

and! best of all! this means that now i can start really focusing on writing my pseudo-parody all-girl feminist YA fantasy musical!
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Someone's a little keen on pretty young men.








I'm just saying.

(also the juxtoposition of Jack being framed on the left side of the screen and each of the competition for his 'peasant king of the jeffersonian' crown being framed on the right is very telling /meta)
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The H/D big bang mods have tried to keep an ongoing list of offspring fandom challenges following the basic big bang format. As you probably know there are a ton! And I'm sure that for all the ones we've managed to track down, we're probably still missing a heck more.

Here is the full list of Big Bangs across all fandoms (that we know of).

I just wanted to link it in case any of you know of any we're missing! I love tracking this challenge across all fandoms and seeing the ways in which it morphs & grows & expands from fandom to fandom. :)

Thanks for checking it out!

Bones 5x03

Oct. 2nd, 2009 07:55 pm
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"NOT THE WAY I PLAY IT."


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* R v Sussex Justices, ex parte McCarthy

I've been stewing over this horrific Roman Polanski mess for days, and this is what I want to say.

The thing that destroys me a little is that Polanski not only felt, back then as well as now, that he was above the law, but also had the money & resources to flee the country and live a celebrated life abroad. Not just for a little while. Not just until the authorities could gather enough grounds for extradition. But for decades.

The thing that destroys me is that people are treating Polanski as though fleeing the country instead of facing a longer sentence was the sensible, respectable thing for a man of his stature to do.

The thing that destroys me is that Sharon Tate's murder is what led to the creation of California's victim impact law, where victims and their families can give testament as to how the crime perpetrated upon them has affected their lives. Yes. The murder of Roman Polanski's wife and unborn child has a direct connection to the way California courts legally view victimization. (Irony upon irony: if he were re-tried today, the victim impact law would probably help Polanski receive a lighter sentence than the one he would have 30 years ago.)

The thing that destroys me is that Polanski is protesting the workings of a justice system that brought down an entire cult family in retribution for his wife's murder.

The thing that destroys me is that Sharon Tate has been presented to my generation garbed in a halo of light. Her murder makes her a classic guardian angel of the virtue of the beautiful, the young, the glamorously female. The butchery of her murder and the brainwashed idealism of her murderers, the Manson Family, are emblematic of the power struggle between those who have nothing and those who have everything, and the chaos that ensues when the legal system that corrals us all into some semblance of order breaks down.

I just keep thinking about the parallel between Roman Polanski and Charles Manson. Both saw themselves as above the law, outside of it in some way. Manson was charismatic and powerful and had the support of a "family" of followers who believed that his greater purpose -- jump-starting the apocalypse -- overrode social law. Polanski is charismatic and powerful and has the support of a family of film industry artists who believe that his greater purpose -- creating meaningful films -- overrides social law. What if Manson had been able to reject the idea of a long sentence after Sharon Tate's murder? What if, once he had fled to Europe, his charisma & spiritual visions were not only welcomed but seen to be of so much greater cultural value that they outweighed the detriment to society presented by his crime? What if the U.S. had been unable to persuade foreign governments to extradite him back to face sentencing?

The thing that destroys me is that, like Manson, Polanski viewed the law as something he could manipulate. He cooperated with lawyers & judges; he agreed to the plea bargain; he got everything he wanted: permission to travel. permission to finish his films. permission to leave psychiatric evaluation in 42 days instead of the mandated 90 he was supposed to spend before sentencing. Everything was going his way, but the instant things didn't go his way, he simply dropped the pretense that the law was worth upholding. He dropped the pretense that the criminal justice system had any hold on him whatsoever. He fled, and so neatly, so tidily, that he was able to pick right back up where he left off, making all those great films we know, love, and celebrate today.

And oh, how his supporters insist upon the value of those films. As though they are intrinsically tied to the separate circumstance of a man in his forties drugging & assaulting a teenager. As though the rape of a 13-year-old girl is not only connected, but also ameliorated by, the existence of Chinatown, Rosemary's Baby, The Pianist.

Polanski supporters, hell, Polanski himself, seem to equate the greatness of Polanski's art with some sort of untouchable social platform upon which he can stand, without being distracted or annoyed by tedious things like social justice. (Nevermind that history is littered with great artists whose personal lives have been despicable while their art has been sublime. Wagner was a racist. Ezra Pound was a Nazi. Picasso abused women. Hitchcock was a sociopath. Woody married his daughter, Whoopi takes pains to distinguish between the nuances of rape and rape rape. The line wraps around the block.)

But social justice doesn't just apply on a microcosmic level. Yes, Polanski pleaded guilty in hopes of serving a lighter sentence. Yes, his victim believes that they both have suffered enough. But on a broader level, when a rich white man can rape a girl, skip the country, and not have to pay for it, simply because he is an ~artist~, then the entire idea of social justice breaks down in a way that is so public, so shocking, that the implications of it are inescapable.

The Roman Polanski case holds a jagged mirror up to our faces, and the reflection is so ugly that we can't help but stare at it, can't help but be forced to face what we don't what to face: the truth that there is a gaping, horrific divide, not only in the actual application of the law, but in the way we apply cultural justice between social classes, across racial and ethnic and income divides, and across cultural divides. We let pedophiles direct box office hits. We make heroes of athletes who evade their taxes, use steroids, run dogfighting rings, murder their wives. We re-elect presidents who lie to start wars. We are enraged over Polanski because he has the audacity to insist that he is above the law. I think we are also a little enraged at ourselves for producing a culture that has turned Polanski's belief into a reality. Celebrities, artists, wall street moguls & high-powered politicians, are above the law.

Social law is designed to prove greater than individuals, designed to draw upon our best selves and produce something that is greater than the sum of us. Great talent does not equal greatness. Polanski's body of work may be great, and it is; but the social law he is flaunting is about greatness--our greatness as a collective society. We are angry, we are upset, because if we can't impose a sentence upon someone who pleads guilty to a crime as awful as Polanski's, then our own greatness is suspect.

As a culture, we idolize celebrities, the rich, the powerful. We make even the most infamous into icons at the drop of a hat. We impose upon them a reality so bizarrely separated from the reality we know that they all live and die in the Neverland we built for them. Britney escapes to shave her head. The Lohans get a reality show. The unnamed cinema diva delays call time for her performances of Master Class for up to 60 minutes while she throws fits backstage. Ken Lay costs 20,000 people their livelihoods and their life savings, and over 1200 people attend a memorial service in his honor upon his death. Diana dies in a fiery crash, chased by paparazzi. Michael dies at the hands of a practitioner determined to help him sustain the bubble he lived in at all costs.

And Roman Polanski goes to Europe and spends his latter days accepting awards for lifetime achievement. A few of us, like, say, the Swiss police still stationed outside of Xanadu, arrest him so that he can pay his debt to society, and those who live within that bubble, that illusive bubble where fame really does equate to greatness, explode in fury.

But we, we on the outside--we flail in outrage, and we are troubled, because we know deep in our hearts that we helped construct Xanadu. We helped construct a society that administers justice from the bottom up while administering glory & stature from the top down. And when we press ideas of justice upon those at the top, how can it help but be a foreign, irrelevant thing to them, being as they are, as Polanski no doubt is, so unacquainted with what it looks like up close?

Great art does not equal greatness. A great artist directed Chinatown; a great man would never have raped a child.

A man learning how to be great? Such a man would accept responsibility for his actions and face his sentencing without pride, without defiance, without egotism or hubris. But that is an act of greatness beyond the moral parameters of a man who has spent so many years in the bubble we have built for him.

Until we as a society insist on social & cultural equality between the rich/powerful and the low/working classes; until white-collar criminals and common criminals are treated as equals in the legal system; until equal attention is paid to the minimum 7,500 wrongful arrests & convictions in the U.S. each year as is paid to the Lays & Vicks & Polanskis of the world; until all these things and so many more occur to tip the balance of the law towards the weak, that bubble, that Xanadu, that Neverland of isolated celebrity and uneven justice will continue to exist.

Deep in our hearts, I think we know that. We rage against Polanski. We weep for his victim and for all the victims of sexual molestation who are victimized all over again by the failure of justice in this case. But deep in our hearts, I think we rage and we weep for ourselves as well.

That's the thing that destroys most of all.
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This is an extremely important post to read as banned book week coincides with the escalation of challenges to books by YA authors all around the country (and, perhaps, with the escalation of our collective denial about what teenage life actually looks like.)

We've Got a Whole Lot of Crazy Going On

This is an excellent post and you should all read it, that's all.


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When I first took a look at Crank, I thought it was an empty contribution to the confessionals genre, which I had no use for. But what the hell do I know? During the 3 years that I tutored kids on probation, I saw more kids reading Ellen Hopkins than any other author, and not only did I see more kids reading Crank & its siblings, I saw kids reading Crank who wouldn't go near other books, kids who normally hated to read. That, to me, says that Ellen Hopkins (oh and dude, i totally didn't know Ellen Hopkins had an LJ) is doing exactly what adults want books to do: teach their children something meaningful about their own lives, and maybe even help them cope with their lives.

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Oh, and that challenge in Kentucky to Twisted, Lessons from a Dead Girl, and other books that we thought had ended? it's back on and the books have been banned all over again by the superintendent.

Things.

Sep. 30th, 2009 10:32 am
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1. I haven't had much to say so far about Banned Books Week, but in part that's because I've been busy reading a banned book: [livejournal.com profile] jbknowles' fantastic Lessons From a Dead Girl, which was just challenged by a school in Kentucky -- the same school district that is apparently now not letting teachers wear shirts that say "I read banned books" in support of Banned Book Week because they are too "political."

- Laurie Halse Anderson's book Twisted (about a kid on probation, a subject near and dear to my heart) was also addressed in that challenge, as was Sonya Sones' What My Mother Doesn't Know and What My Girlfriend Doesn't Know. All 3 of these books are excellent and I highly recommend them to anybody looking for something to read this week!

- I already linked to this once this week but it deserves linking again: the Interactive Map of book challenges and bans across the U.S., 2007-2009.
I love this map because a) it shows how real and daily challenges to freedom of speech in my country are, b) it handily sums up responses and attempts to fight back that are both heartwarming and encouraging, and c) it's a great reading list. :D

- Read a banned book this week!!!! Lessons From a Dead Girl is my banned book this week: what's yours?

2.



omgimaybegettingthiskitten
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here are 5 good things about today:

- i did a tarot reading for the waitress at the pizza parlour; her name is Jeannette and she was very nice and she said her reading made a lot of sense and it was a nice thing and i felt good.

- i wore pigtails to work and even if i didn't keep them up for long, it was fun. i felt playful! even if it was just because i'd gotten called Pippi Longstocking yesterday. One should obviously wear pigtails more often.

- i daydreamed about adopting two kittens from the animal shelter. they would have awesome names! i don't know what those names would be. but they will be awesome. Maybe Anne & Gilbert if they are a boy and a girl. Maybe Shindou & Touya if they are both boys! Maybe Rory & Paris if they are both girls! idk! anyway, the major point here is: KITTENS. or maybe i will just go to the animal shelter and visit.

- i had a bowl of fruit topped with whipped cream and white chocolate from Taste Unlimited, om nom nom.

- My book order came in: A copy of The Demon's Lexicon to give to a friend, and The Hate List, which Justine Larbalestier blurbed and highly recced.

I really admire Justine Larbalestier, and not only did she (!!!) tweet my post on Glee the other day! but she also wrote Liar, a book which I'd been waiting to read for ages and which finally came out today. I just wrote about this book the other day, but today is its official launch and I just want to say go read this book. I thought it was amazing and inspiring and it slammed down layer after layer of complexity in a way that I found brilliant and inspiring. 3 days later I can't stop thinking about this book. I really want people to talk to about it!!! I hope you will please let me know if any of you read it.

- there is a sixth thing but it totally counts: [livejournal.com profile] samenashi just IM'd me from Japan! ♥♥♥♥♥ so now the bad day I was having has been washed away. <3 ilu sam.

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okay so! i am trying to learn the tarot! Here is an exercise to help me do so!

The first 10 people who comment to this post with a question, will get a mini-tarot reading done by me! I'll pull a spread of between 1 and 3 cards to answer it.

(Keep in mind that I'm still new at this! Other Tarotists who are actually, you know, good at this stuff are free to correct me or straighten me out if I just read something completely the wrong way.)

<3 to all.
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Things You've Always Wanted To Say to Me!

It has been one of those years, so I am doing this meme! In case, you know, I have any karmic spring cleaning to do. In fall.

(secretly I am doing this meme bc I hope that I have more good karma in my favor than it feels like I do. But you didn't hear me say that aloud, shh!)

Glee.

Sep. 25th, 2009 06:38 pm
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omg giant post is giant!

BANNED BOOKS, WHITEWASHED BOOKS, BLOGGED BOOKS, books books books.

  • my mission to buy fewer books and read more is becoming hopelessly twisted around in conflict with what is apparently my other subconscious mission to read every YA known to man. I am running out of room for my books. I HAD TO TAKE SOME OF THEM TO WORK JUST SO I'D HAVE ROOM FOR THEM.



    I have read a total of one and a half of these books. :( 4 others I'm steadily making my way through at random intervals. asdfjkd;jksd probably there are easier ways of accomplishing this when a straight read-through would take like 2 hours. life. :( Attention span, where have you fled?

  • Lessons From a Dead Girl & Liar!

    on Twitter, [livejournal.com profile] jbknowles linked to this amazing map of banned book challenges across the country over the last 2 years. I've been staring at this map all morning. It's a great way to pick up a quick to-read list and also to feel inspired by the outcome of many of the challenges. Jo Knowles herself just had one of her books, Lessons from a Dead Girl, challenged successfully by a parent in Kentucky. Her response is here.

    As for me, I finally turned over LFADG last night at my local bookstore, went, holy crap this book looks amazing, and bought it. Started reading it this morning and it's utterly fantastic. So thanks, closeminded parent & equally closeminded judge in KY, for giving me something new to read! ♥

    Today I also get to pick up a book I've been wanting to read for months, Liar by Justine Larbalestier. As many of you might have heard, this is a book that suffered from a terrible decision by its publisher Bloomsbury to put the face of a white girl on the cover even though the main character is black. This decision was not only an atrocious example of whitewashing, but actively undermined the plot of the novel, and thus added confusion about the story to the outrage many readers felt. Bloomsbury reversed their decision before the book went to release, and appears on shelves starting this week-ish with a new cover!



  • I was asked by several people yesterday on Twitter to make a post on Glee. I am going to try to do so concisely and accurately; but please realize that my perspective is coming from a) someone who co-directed an acappella singing group in college, and b) someone with a background in musical theatre, viewing Glee as one of a procession of musicals entering popular culture lately. Why Glee doesn't fill me with any. )

    All that boils down to: I don't hate Glee. I think it's cute, and I want to see it do well and succeed. But I'm not going to praise it, or join in the love. I just don't find it to be innovative, in any area that it's assayed so far, and I'm not impressed.
  • \o/


    (also let the record show that these seats were so cheap i almost wept at the beauty of it all.)

    *___*

    Sep. 23rd, 2009 07:15 pm
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    Is anyone in the Boston area interested in seeing Sondheim (*__*) & Frank Rich (*__*) with me on Nov. 14 (Sat. 8pm) at Harvard?
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  • Let's start off with this excerpt from Pride & Prejudice: The Musical with music & lyrics by Rita Abrams.

    I wish you joy with all my heart and from this moment may it start /
    And maybe ardor that lights up your eyes like sunlight in a thousand skies!

    Because nothing says "elegant social satire" like theoretical wishes for theoretical ardor in theoretical skies, set to a synthetic drum beat!


  • Rebecca: The Musical, lyrics by Michael Kunze and music by Sylvester Levay. Kunze and Levay have written several musicals and Rebecca, which was originally produced in Vienna, is his most popular. It's been, erm, translated into English by Christopher Hampton, and I have no comment on the original lyrics, but the English version with Levay's music. Well. Let's just take a listen, shall we?

    Last night I dreamt of Manderley. Because nothing says GOTHIC SUSPENSE THRILLER like a slow, relaxed, whole-scale melody in a major key combined with lyrics that spoil the entire musical. Throwing a line like "but our love will never die!" into the mix sort of ruins the whole 'is he or isn't he still in love with rebecca' mystery that forms the basis of the whole plot. Maybe it's just me, but I like my suspense thrillers to actually, oh, contain suspense? And also I like for musicals to have music that doesn't suck but possibly when you've watched six Tenimyu productions you forfeit the right to complain on that front.


  • Closer to Heaven, aka The Pet Shop Boys musical. Props to Neil Tennant and the gang for not wanting to pop out yet another pop musical on regurgitated songs, but, well. Erm. Here's the opening sequence, "My Night."



    ...so basically, musicals are things where people produce noises and movements that may occasionally resemble singing and dancing, and nothing happens. I get it. It's your life. You can do it. You're going to light up the night like fireworks. Please do not think this bears any resemblance to plot.


  • Emma: The Musical! Lyrics by, uh, some guy whose last name is Gordon, I've seen his name listed differently in three different places, I give up.

    oh, my, where to begin? What about with the HORRID british accents, especially from the Mr. Knightley in this production, lol. And a score that contains mostly useless songs with airy melodies and lyrics. There is at least some attention given in this show to making the music have something to do with the plot, which is a step up from the other shows on this list, but still so far from being satisfactory that after trying twice i've still not finished listening to this album all the way through, haha. Especially, all the Austenian dialogue is left up to the book, and since the dialogue is where the plot happens, the score comes across as flighty and substanceless. Also, the funniest line in the score, "but my brother and your sister have three children, it's - confusing!" is promptly ruined by the sappiness of the lyrics that follow, something about grace and smiles and silly tripe like that. Andrew Davies would not approve!

    If you're going to adapt Austen as a musical, why not at least *attempt* to Adapt the language of Austen to music? It has a rhythm and a grace and a musicality all its own, I don't think I'm asking for the moon. :( AND YET, my favorite Austen novel suffers mercilessly. :( OH, JANE, WE NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER.

    (the writer of the above also wrote the musical Jane Eyre. Oh, goody. I'm sure that will be Gothic!)


    Anyone else? Feel like sharing any hilariously bad musicals? :D

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    And while I'm snarking about theatre, here's a quick top 5 list, courtesy of last week's SETC auditions

    Top 5 things not to do at a professional audition:
    5. Don't repeat last year's performance. I REMEMBER YOU AND I'M UNIMPRESSED.

    4. Don't steal your performance from someone who auditioned last year. I REMEMBER YOU, AND I REMEMBER THEM, AND I'M COMPARING YOU TO THEM AND THEY'RE WAY BETTER, AND YOU'RE UNORIGINAL.

    3. Don't steal your performance from Adam Lambert's American Idol audition, or any of his songs for American Idol, or any of his songs from Upright Cabaret.* HONEY, NONE OF YOU ARE ADAM LAMBERT. IT'S BETTER NOT TO EVEN TRY.

    2. Don't do a monologue or sing a song that makes mention of pee. You would think that this would be one of those self-evident things that requires no explanation, and yet. And yet.

    1. Don't sing a song that has the line "I'm your Hebrew slave!" honestly. ... I mean. HONESTLY.

    *In fact, here's a thought: DON'T RIP OFF SOMEONE ELSE'S PERFORMANCE STYLE AT ALL. again, one of those things you'd think would be self-evident. and yet. and yet.
  • creepy kid ahhh


    THIS IS NOT OKAY.



    And before you say "it's just a joke, lighten up," imagine SB that is a hot 17-year-old girl. Is it still funny?


    Just contacted Sendspace. We'll see if I get a response.

    eta: Sendspace responded to my contact promptly and seemed very interested in knowing what the ad source was; no word on what action they've taken, if any, to correct.
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    The Throne

    James Hampton, 1909, Elloree, SC - 1964, Washington, DC
    Custodian, General Services Administration; Maker of The Throne

    I couldn't take it all in, And I was a little frightened. )



    This poem is basically exactly how I feel about the Throne. Exactly. It's terrifying and dumbfounding and elating and terrifying again. I can't stop thinking about it.

    .

    Sep. 15th, 2009 05:10 pm
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    (I thought this would be clear from the context, but it's not, so let me clarify: I believe the media perpetuates rape culture. The juxtaposition of "ENJOY THIS" next to this article is, I believe, an unintentionally ironic example of this in action.)

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